Reflections of a Rope Dummy

Realization time again.

I was at a play party a few days ago, and I realized I really don't like rope. Not in the "I HATE IT! AHH!" Type of fashion... more like it just doesn't do a thing for me at the fetish/kink/sexual? level. Which is sad, because I know I could have fun if it were a challenge for me (read stress position), or if I could find some headspace other than 'how the hell are they doing that tie, 'cause I bet I could do this?!?' I mean, I have a blast with Crossbow and Spider because they tend to get to some other things when I'm immobilized that are VERY enjoyable. I thought Crossbow's corset tie on me was pretty and I with I could have seen myself in it (well - it would be pretty with a better body model, but let's NOT go there this time), but it was more enjoyable when Milli, Crossbow, and Spider attacked me with ice and other various implements. That's when I ended up spacing out in order to cope instead of saying or doing something I know I'd regret. Especially since Milli's taken. Although fucking hot. Although happily taken. Grawr. [Insert frustration with lack of person to 'share time' with here]

Then, while being tied up by another gent and helping him get the ties down... it hit me and I spoke the truth. I don't mind being a rope bunny. I enjoy being helpful while being tied... as a practice implement or a demo doll. That's fulfilling because it serves a purpose, but on my own? Rope (maybe I should classify it as ground ties) doesn't really do much for me, at a meh, shrug, level. It's what you do to me when I'm IN the rope that get me going. Which is really sad... because Crossbow really loves to tie me up.

Actually, thinking about it, I did love the suspension. I might have to beg at some point to get more experience with THAT form of rope. Hm.

Also, someone beat me (yes, read that in any way you will) if I don't get the balls to ask for a play session sometime soon with Miss Sharky. 'cause that woman can swing a whip and is good with 'newbs'. I've seen her play. Just sayin'.